As I mentioned at the start of the year, this year I have been trying to live my life free from gut-wrenching anxiety.
I have had a pretty good run during a busy start to the year, despite very challenging experiments and trips to Canada, India, and the USA.
But as we approach the Solstice, I can feel the anxiety gaining in intensity again.
However, my determination to stare it down and make it go away is undiminished!
In testament to that determination I give you this two minute song I wrote earlier in the year. It includes the lyrics:
I refuse to be unhappy, I refuse to be sad, I refuse to spend another day feeling bad. I refuse. I simply refuse.
Fifty years is … long enough
Blogging and running both help me to reduce the chronic effects of work-induced anxiety.
But recently they have been in competition with each other for precious non-work time.
Blogging – if I write thoughtfully – allows me to clarify my ideas. And without that discipline, lots of my ideas have found no proper place for expression.
And running (more than 100 km a month) has helped me lose 13 kg – and also helped me cope with anxiety from day to day.
Hopefully – as my desire to lose weight wanes – I will be able to find a new balance that will allow me to both blog and run.
I just have this keynote talk to write for a conference, and after that I am sure work will calm down…
Wish me luck…